I begin this as a humbling experience. Maybe writing down things will help me visualise and prioritize. I ahve wasted 23 years of my life now. I dont have anything to show for it. Except my parents who ahve stood by me through the darkest times. i bow down to their infinite love and unparalleled affection. This is my life's only chance at making things better. i am going to find buddha, i am going to clean myself, i am not going to get distracted, till i achieve everything that i want.
I ahve been doing bad so far. I have wasted about a week since I met my prof, doing absolutely nothing. That has to change. This is my only chance, and I am not going to let it go.
